Chapter 29

Yeah Anas still has a crush on Lilian but I really hate anas now so I do not care 'bout him. So I called my grandma and she told me that she was there and "7ayakom"


R7na foug we made me a big bag we were staying for the weekend 😁

Lilian's maid made her a bag and sent it with the driver.

I wore skinny jeans and a cropped long sleeved grey shirt but like pulled the sleeves slightly up and wore Chanel toms took my bag and we went downstairs but it took a long time to wear the skinny jeans with my cast on -.-

Lilian herself was very very stylish she was wearing a dark jean jacket with a white body under it and beige shorts but not that short she didn't want my family to judge her 😂😪 <9ayda>


Anas: hey

Lilian: hii

I shat up.

Anas: fai wain btroo7oon

I ignored

Anas: fai??

Fai: chalet mama hessa mnak okay bye.

I walked outside

Anas: FAAI

Fai: Haa HAA shtabee

Anas said something to lilian she smiled nodded then went to the car he told me to come

Anas: Fai

Fai: shtabee

Anas: shda3wa shfeech 3alay

And there it was the war of tears.

I just have three places where I cry.

1) My room

2) the balcony

3) the chalet

I like fresh air!!!


I walked up to the balcony and faced the garden just watched and watched with tears streaming gosh I hated me I hated my life and I thought I was going to move on today bsr3a I wiped them away 👏

Anas came and sat.

Anas: Fai

Fai: You hate me I hate you why bother talking to me

Anas: afffaaa you hate me??

Moo wagt st3baaa6 -.-

Anas: asef asef oo rabi asef bes 3ad shda3wa mat7acheeni machena 3amdech okhoo yuba gilna asef


-you should read that it has information that makes some stuff easier-

To forgive him or not tooooo?

I smiled I guess I'll move on. He is my one and only sibling 😁

Iffff wai3 yakser ilkha6er -....-

Anas: oo hatha a new phone bedaal ili ga6ayta bilchalet winkissaarr

He handed me an iphone five gosh I love my brother I hugged him.

Anas: r6'aytaaay?

Me: I nodded ee I said in betweeen our hug


Anas: ana gayel ikhtee ma9la7cheyaa

-awwww inshaweg 😂😪-

Me: a77 a77 bes e3awer

He started tickling me I laughed hard.

Me: b ahahahahahha eesss hahahahahahahaha bes bes hahahahahah besahhahahahahahahha BES BES!!

Anas: okay yallah baroo7

Me: wain

Anas: chalet

Me: ma3ana?

Anas: ee

Me: oo mnou 3azmek -.-?

Anas: ana

Me: 3azem nafsek

Anas: eehh

Me: ullah

Anas: chub intay oo kobotich

Me: kuboty 7ilwa

Anas: 3ajeeba

Me: albes na6'ara wla la2?

Anas: la2 bdoon a7la

Me: yah yah gmna in3aref fashion

Anas: AFAA 3ALAICH

Me: LOL

Anas: bes yallah

Me: laish

Anas: 7obi ilawal wilakheer bilsayara

Me: aaahhh chthi laish imsare3

Anas: laaaaa 7ilfay wallah?

Me: wallah :D

Anas: yallah yallah imshay jdaamiii

I took my crutches and started walking fast next month I get to go to the doctor so he could check my leg and tell me if I could take the cast off early :D yaaah yaaah yaaah 💃💃

Chapta 28

It's the fifth day of school. I was faking my life I was faking my smile. It would just hurt to laugh really it would.

Lilian: Fai
P
Me: haaaaa

Lilian: shfeech shfeech

Me: abee anaaaam

Lilian: la jed

I frowned they both understood. He came into the cafeteria and he was laughing with his friends really LAUGHING.

Okay I willl move on no more faking ba6'7ak.

Reem: good for you.

Me: haw shloun sima3tay

Reem: I read through minds

Lilian: ee ana ba3ad

Reem: intay dasha 3ar6' osh khal akamel tefelsefee

Lilian indagrat and what she always does when she tindeger is. She looks to the right and says: ha ee shnou?

I laughed reem and lilian laughed at the sight of seeing me laugh. It's gonna be hard but I'll do it. I know some days I'll break down but just not today.


Lilian: guess

Reem: shnou

Me; reem galat guess y3ni try guessing.

Reem: LOOL lemme guess: it's thursday?

Lilian: oh yeah and that means: ITS THURSDAY THURSDAY GOTTA GET DOWN ON THURSDAY.

Random guy in the cafeteria: LOOKING FORWARD TO THE WEEKEND

Other guy: WEEEEKEEENND.

Random guy: REBECCA BLACK YEAH MAN

lilian: YOU GOT THAT RIGHT!!

Eeryone laughed then carried on with what they were doing :D LOL lilian's a keeper.


Reem: LOOL fashalteena

Lilian: ana fashaltich at least ana magool LOOL ana a6'7ak

Reem: chub.

Lilian: asfa

Reem: chub

Lilian: a7ebech

Reem: chub

Lilian: yaaaa 7obbbbyyy

Reem: hehe

Me: hahahahaha

Lilian: khanroo7 chalet

Me: eee

I jumped out of my seat

Reem: shfeekom you two are so hyper today?

Me: madree bes khanroo7

Lilian immitated me: eeee
And she jumped out of her seat.
LOL

Reem: ana magdar

Me: laish

Reem: wedding b3dain zwara mare7t minzimaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan.

Lilian: ee 9a7 3aib lazem itroo67 zwara hatha far6' min fara2e6' aleeeman kho99oo9an ilwahagaton.

Reem: shgam itgooleen?

Lilian: madree LOL

Me: shakoo ileeman?

Lilian: allah yadree

Me: you mean allah ya3lam

Lilian: ee 9a7 a9lan ana fakart ini agool chithi chan agool yadree.

We laughed.

We went to arabic we all had arabic together. The best part was that rashed, abdullah and jassem were with us.

Teacher: ya 3yaaal

All: halaaaa

Teacher: ooloo n3am shoo ilhala dee?

Rashed: abla. Abla abla

Teacher: ANA ISTAAZ MUSH ABLA.

Rashed: ohhh

Abdullah: staath lazem itge9 sh3rek b3dain ilbanat 7asbalhom inta mnhom!!!

Everyone laughed

Rashed: staath hatha 9a7?

Staath: mmmm

Me: mmmm

Stath: mmmmm

Me: mmmhhhmmm

Everyone was laughing

Stath: aahaaaa

Me: aywaaa

Stath: ante shoo 3am ta3mali! He shouted I jumped from my seat causin my daftar and pencil to fly on rashed's face. He 9scared me.

Everyone laughed hard the staath had a smirk he hated rashed abdullah and jassem


Jassem: IM SEXY AND I KNOW IT

Lilian: WHEN I WALK IN THE STREET THIS IS WHAT I SEE

Jassem: EVERYBODY STOPS AND STARING AT ME

Lilian: I GOT FASION IN MY PANTS AND I AINT AFRAID TO SHOW IT SHOW IT SHOW IT

Lilian&jassem: IM SEXY AND I KNOW IT


They both started jumping and dancing LOL our class grew close.

There were 5 minutes till the dissmissal bell rings we still were in arabic it was quiet. A little to quiet.

Reem: AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH

Se jumped up.

Stath: shoo feeki shoo feeki?

Reem: shft faaaaar.

Abdullah: KAAHOOO

He pointed at me.

Rashed: INGE6A BILZBALA?

Me: LA LA LA

Me: I'd hit you two right now but then it would be animal abuse.

I heard a loud crash

I looked at abdullah: shfeek

Abdullah: 67t sa3deeni

He was on the floor with the desk on top of him.

Everyone looked at me like telling me to go help him. I just laughed hard.

Me: HAHAHAHHAAHH LOL HAHAHHAAHA LAUGHS LOOOOOOOOL ambaih I'm crying.

I was tearing up.

He smiled at the sight of me laughing so hardly :p


I helped him up then went home with lilian to our house of course.!

Chapta 26

And with that all I saw was black.


I may have fainted but I still hear everything.

Anas: FAI

anas: FAI SHNOU 6A7??

Anas: FAI RDAY 3LAY

anas: FAI OKAY MOO LAZEM TAKLEEN BES RDAY 3LAY

Anas: FAI

And with that I heard a loud bang and I felt someone carry me while shaking.

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I was now in the doctors office he was doing some checkups.


Doctor: meta akher marra kalaitay?

I shat up.

Anas: youmain

Doctor: tara moo zain 7a6ainalech drip oo an9e7ich takleen cerelac kilyoum 3ashan you gain weight moo zain.

I looked at the ground CERELAC
Everyday?

NOO.

Anas: imbala ra7 takel yallah mashkoor diktoor.

I was getting out wila ashoof lilian yaya

Lilian: FAI

Me: shtbeen

Lilian: ya 7aywana 7asbali mitay

Me: chub

Lilian: shfeech

Me: sorry sorry bes mali khilg shay

Lilian: oh

I gave her a hug

Me: wain reem?

Lilian: kahee yaya gam tanzel min ilsayara

Me: m3a mnou yeetay the driver?

Lilian: reem? Ee ana umm la2

Me: haw 3ayal m3a mnou.


Guess who came running. Looking for me.















YES. You guessed correct. It was zayd.

He saw me he smiled then saw anas and looked at the floor.











FUUUUCCCKKKK MMMYYYY LLIIFFEE.


Anas: 3aib itgooleen fuck

Me: wakher 3ani

Anas: kaifech.

Me: and I thought you were going to replace dad sinse he's gone all you've done was ruin my life and they left for TWO DAYS. How will I survive for 8 FUC-REAKIN MONTHS.


I walked and walked past zayd and walke and walked and walked untill I saw reem she gave me a hug and I told her I wanted to go home so we went home she went to her house and I went to mine.

Chapta 27

God how much I hateb my life it's been four days with me the kettle some bowls and cerelac in my room. Tomorrow's school I'm a complete mess I eat one meal a day and that's a bowl of cerelac. It isn't helping like I haven't gained weight nor lost weight.


I haven't heard anas knock on my door since the day at the hospital. Reem and lilian come everyday knock on the door and I'd tell them to go away and I talk to them on whats app.


I git up took a bath washed my hair i love hot showers. Hot showers are just so amazing. I dried my hair kept it wavy sat infront of my closet room and just sat in my bra and panties staring at my clothes.


I decided to wear abercrombie and fitch pants and some white shirt. I was just staying at home.


I love london. I wanna go to london again. It's fun there.


I went to the breakfast room starving before entering I saw abdullah facing me anas had his back to me and zayd next to abdullah facing me.


My eyes fell into zayds for a second which felt like hours.


Anas turned around he was.. What should I say shocked that I came down ;')

Anas: fai

I looked at him

Anas: akheeraaan

I nodded and forced a smile. I looked up to see zayd busy with his phone and eating. My presence didn't even make him want to even look at me like at least give me a sign but no he was ussing his phone while eating.


I went back upstairs. Locked my room and stared at the wall letting out a deep raspy sigh. Ukh wai3. Kraht nafsi.

I read a text. That text was well a text. A text not from anyone a text from zayd. That text told me to move on that text told me that he wanted us to be over that text told me that we weren't meant to be if we are faith will bring us back together.


Oh well fuck you. I'll move on. I'll fake a laugh and a smile untilll i really do move on.

This is the right choice. Okay. It's going to be hard bes basaweeha


"ili mayabeena manabee"

Chapta 25

Chapter 25

There were six days till school and I'm planning to lock myself in my room for those six days.

But no with reem and lilian I can't :)

Lilian: Faai baabby

I hugged her then reem came I told them everything from a to z they felt sorry and didn't dare ask questions


I told them I needed some time alone they understood so they went.


I locked myself in and sat there just sat there sewing my life hating my life wanting to kill myself but lilian made sur I didn't have any sharp objects before leaving.


At maybe 7:30 PM anas knocked on my door he told me to eat since I haven't eatin' anything since Mcdonalds yesterday.

Anas: Fai lazem takleen

Me: Anas mabee

Anas: fai latkhaleeni akser ilbaab

Me: bacher akel

Anas: 7ilfay

Me: wallah

Anas: okay

He left.

Why is he caring about me I thought he hated me.


===DAY TWO OF MY MISERY===


I miss him so much.


I haven't eaten anything and it's 5:30 PM anas keeps knocking and knocking but i keep ignoring

Anas: FAAAAII he screamed he was angryy.

Fai: anas bes

Anas: Fai giltay ra7 takleen

Fai: moo 3'a9eb al7een ba3ad shway akel

Anas: la2 yallah

Fai: ANAS DONT MAKE ME HATE YOU MORE THAN I HATE YOU RIGHT NOW.

Anas: you hate me right now?

He sounded? Hurt was the word.


And with that all I saw was black.

Chapta 24

"""""" I looked at my phone to see 1 missed call from Zayd and a bunch of others.

Soon enough 2 missed calls from zayd"""

*Zayds POV*

I went home layed on my bed ignoring lilian ignoring my parents.i do not care. The only person I care about right now is Fai ee ma3'ayrha Fai Al X

I synced in shnou anas galee

What anas said:::

"Shouf inta 9a7be minziman oo abeek itwakher 3n fai adree you'r a good guy but one day you'll break her heart and I don't want her to go through that."

That was the only thing I heard that sentence he continued but that sentence made the impossible seem impossible.

I don't know what to do it was 1:30 AM i had a feeling fai was still awake because if she loves me she'd be going through what I'm going through but I don't want her to go through that 😔

I called her once she didn't pick up I called again she didn't pick up and again I was getting worried I called one more time and she picked up.

*NO ONES POV*

Zayd: Fai

Fai: aloo -she said in between her cries-

Zayd: Fai

Fai: Zaaayyd -she broke down again-

Zayd: fai please -his eyes got watery the girl he loved was crying because she thinks he's about to leave her-

Fai: Zayd don't leave me pleeaasee my mom and dad left me please don't leave -she begged while crying-

While zayd broke down silently

Wondering why all this drama? Fai was very close to zayd she loved him he was her brother her mother her father and her best friend but now her mother and fathe left and now Zayd's leaving her.


Fai: Zaydd

Fai: Zayd no I'm not worth crying

Zayd: imbala okay intay worth it inzain intay worth it fahamtaay latkhaleen halfikra itdesh ib rasech.

Fai: okay

Zayd: Fai ana a7ebech

Fai: Zayd ana b3ad

Zayd: fai mabee aroo7

Fai: latroo7

Zayd: bes laazem

Tears where streaming down his and her faces.

Fai: ma7ebek

Zayd: Fai please latgooleen chithi



Fai: okay


Zayd may have been calm this whole time but inside him he wanted to blow up he wanted to scream and shout -I WANNA SCREAM AND SHOUT AND LET IT ALL OUT AND SCREAM AND SHOUT AND LET IT OUT WE SAYIN OOOO RIO RUO RIO-


Zayd: FAI A7EBECH MABI AHEDICH YAKHI FIHMAY A7EBECH WALLAH WALLAH WALLAH WALLAH WALLAH MAGDAR A3EESH


Zayd broke down.

*God this is a dramatic seeen*

But yet they both knew they had to say goodbye

Zayd: Fai

Fai: Zayd please

Zayd: Fai hatha moo goodbye forever

Fai: hatha shnou kilman egool b3dain mashoofhom marathanya

Zayd: wallah moo forever I'll never ever forget you. Never fahamtay? Never oo I'll come back 3la youm takharojech oo akh6ebich bes jarbay tinsayne istansay ib 7ayatich. Bes latkhafeen wallah baredlech youm takharojech


Fai: latred mabeek

Zayd: Bared oo bared 3'a9ban 3alaich

Fai: zayd a7ibek

Zayd: Fai a7ibech

Fai: I guess this is goodbye

Zayd: LA2 LA2 MOO GOODBYE. Bared fa y3ni hatha talk to you later when I graduate.

He felt her smile he felt her sadness he felt her weakness he loved her

Fai: Bye zayd I love you.

Zayd: tadreen ishkether ana n6art 3ashan itgooleen hal kalemat?

he felt her blush

fai: Zayd i will miss you so much

zayd: i will miss you so much more

Fai: Bye

Zayd: ma3asalama Ya a3'la man sakan galbi


They both didn't want to hang up so they fell asleep while hearing eachother's breath

They woke up both to find there phones out of battery.!

They both felt sad nobody was themselves they both wanted one thing and one thing only.


And that thing is



To be back together.

Chapta 23

This post 7g @My_Mistrie_Life and @nevertrusthim 7d'hom 3jeebeeb 💞😋


Me: nope

Anas: akeed

It wasn't easy to lie at his face

I looked at the ground

Anas: itchathbeenn b3ad, Zayd matiwa8a3tek chii

Zayd: msawayt shay!

Anas: 7di ba9adeg giltlek itha it7ebha in6er bes laaa lazem itgoolaha?

Me: ha inta giltla---

Anas: chub oo bes rikbay ilsayara fai

Me: k

I went to the car put my head on the front hood I wasn't crying at all I don't know why but it's life life has it's downs and downs in my life really :)

Anas got on the car not a single word out of our mouths the whole ride but when we entered our home area

Anas: mahagayt'ha minich

Nizal min ilsayara oo dash ilbait


i entered the house


wai3 shnou laish alyoum bes alyoum giltla I love you too misak'ha 3alay ma9ar la my boyfreind wala ana malta bes giltla shnou wai3 bes wai3 7ayatee khaysa abee ajareb I cut maybe hatha will calm me down la la shnou ghabeya ana? Wai3 wai3 anas wai3 kila he judges mayis2al wai3!

I heard a low chuckle from upstairs

Anas: tdreen cham marra giltay wai3?

Me: wai3 this saying my thoughts out loud is getting on m

Anas: I NEVER THOUGHT YOU WOULD GO THERE OO ITKALMEEN A7AD WALLAH WALA 6ARAT 3ALA BALI HALFIKRA INA IKHTI ITROO7 ITKALEM A7AD.!!!!

He stormed back upstairs

Wai3 khal eroo7 emoot. Chna wayed gam agool wai3 bes wai3 kaifkom abee amoot 7ayatee it8ethh

Al7een 6ab3an gal 7g zayd may7acheeni oo al7een wdi a8tel anas ib sacheena oo ohwa nayem bes laaa :) may9eer 7araan :):):))


Weh sta3'ferallah baroo7 a9ali il3isha.


So I prayed oo chithi itsaba7t chan aroo7 ilbalacona my stomach growelleeedd awesomeee omi oo obooy saferaw oo al7een shloun ba6leb ::)) ee btw BOOKI 6'AAA3 IB SUMMER :):):):):):;) 7ayati 3ajeeba 9a7??? Bamoot min ilyoooo3 :::l makalayt shaaay :/;/;/:/:/




I smell foood :p I turned around to see anas with a bag of mcdonalds in his hands.

Anas: hach

I took the bag and said: oh so you believe me now? Thank you for the food.

Anas: sharaitlech 3shan mom and dad saferaw oo sma3tech itfakreen ib 9out 3ali fa mara7 akhaleech itmooteen min ilyou3.


He walke off to his room

ROOOO7 MOOOT ZAAAIN WAI3 SHNOU HATHA WAIII333 MA7AAD E9ADEGNII. A7een he hates me.

Anas: I don't hate you

I heard a door slam shut :)

My life can't be anymore cooler:)

This summer:


My mom and dad decide to leave
Zayd is forced to stay away from me by anas
Anas hates me
I lost my trust from anas
Lilian's still lilian 😂
Reem's still reem 🙈😂
I have this effin cast on
Now I know who the effing girl is.

I broke down Yes Yes Yes I'm becoming a little weaker by the years


Coming back from montanna had some awesome ups and some female doggy downs :)






*ANAS'S POV*


7di 7di 7di 7di 7di 7di 7di 3'abeee :)


Al7een she has her broken foot she has the problem of mom and dad traveling and this comes up oo al7een ana 3a9abt oo sawait shaklee ma7acheeha al7een ihya im3a9ba

Youm sima3t'ha itgool in ohma moo bf oo gf 9ar feeni HEYYAAA 💃🙈 -\o/-


It was maybe 12:00 AM and she was still at the balcony dam gilt 7g zayd ewakher 3anha khla9 3ayal laish ana a3a9eb everythingss good my little sister is goood khla9 3ayal mala da3ee akhaleeha tabchee bil balacona.

*MY POV*


I sat there admiring the stars admiring the world but hating my presense hating that I'm still on this complicated world. At this moment I wanted to leave i wanted to go to heaven or mars or even saturn.

I love zayd even though he just told me I love him with all my heart i live him to the moon and back gid I love him and I will always love him -AND IIIII IIIII III WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOOUUUHHOOOHHHOOH-


I felt someone come sit down beside me I looked up to see anas i shoved his hand off at this moment I hated him at this moment I hated my life.

Anas: Fai

I ignored

Anas: Fai

And I ignored

Anas: Fai please don't ignore

I felt guilty but ignored

Anas: Fai tadreen itha I didn't do anything that means I don't care but I did something so that means I do care y3ni shtabeeni asawi?

I got up and went to my room. Ee kaifi maaraa7 a36ee wayh.

I layed down crying and crying 'till I felt my phone vibrate I ignored it the whole day because the whole day no one called well everyone called except for the person I wanted to call I looked at my phone to see 1 missed call from Zayd and a bunch of others.

Soon enough 2 missed calls from zayd